This is where I talk about the stuff I'm into at the moment. I would love to hear your feedback below and you're welcome to talk about your own! This page is going to be changing and having stuff added to it/taken from it a lot, so stay tuned!
7/24/2024
OMG I AM SO SORRY I've been gone this long. Uggggh I don't even know WHY! Sometimes I just get too tired and then I'm somehow like, scared to touch this place again. Idk even why. I think since I have so many options I've overwhelmed myself with "okay, so what do you want to do for the site?" and I just get so uncomfortable with making a choice that I don't make one at all. I need to get better at making an environment that works for how my brain does, I guess. I've neglected my Bearblog also. I feel really bad!
Recently, I've been trying to search around forums and imageboards to see if any of them would be a good fit for me. Even if none of them are, it's pretty fun to lurk around! Just looking at all the less mainstream social media alternatives is really interesting. I have also been away from tumblr for like 3 months now, which has been pretty good for me. I just get too addicted to scrolling and it's like I'm in a trance just taking in the stimulation....it's very tiring, actually.
I did find this place, which I think I'm going to send a letter to! I have so much stationary, I REALLY want to put it to use. This place would be great for that.
Postbox.garden
Let me share a video (part 1 of a series) that I think people on Neocities would really like.
Using This iPod For 30 Days Changed My Life//Digging The Greats
It's an interesting series of a guy's journey disengaging from algorithms, social media, and he even dumbs down his smartphone. I think his perspective is refreshing, because as much as I live seeing all the people who make videos where they make choices like this, this guy is someone I wouldn't usually see. He's married with kids, has a day job that is very social, and his channel is mainly about music. I can tell this change in his lifestyle really changed him, too. I love seeing a "normie" person understand what I think a lot of people in the downgrade movement (I lack a real name to call it, but you know what I mean, right?) have been trying to show people. That there's another way. That you don't have to be stuck with these things. That you don't have to conform to something that actively hurts you. If anything, I just want people to take the critism against modern tech and social media seriously. I'm not here to falsify it's importance with appeals to emotion; I just want people to try it out and see for themselves. If you do watch all 4 parts, you'll reach something at the very end where to me, is why I find this so important to spread awareness for and even advocate for the option to unplug in the mainstream.
Also, I made a little thing the other day! I resized it in case someone wants to use it to link me back. I guess you can use the big one too, but it's pretty darn big. I might do something with it but idk yet.
Smaller one:
So yeah, bye I guess! Don't be afraid to tell me about any places you hang out online that you think I might dig.
Site plans: I want to show off a picture of my bookshelf not because it's particulary wonderful, but it is a great insight into who I am as a person. I also would love a "what's in my bag" section to be here somewhere. I just have to figure out where. I would LOVE to see other people do this for their sites!! I just think it's a great way to meet someone without seeing their face lol. I hope you become inspired and show me. Steal my ideas!! Please I'm begging lol
5/15/24
It is with a heavy heart and a heavy self-awarenes of my own worsening cringe that I inform you I am now deeply obsessed with Hazbin Hotel and Helluva Boss.
Tbh I realize why a bunch of kids are into it as it pretty much appeals to every desire to be edgy, to feel like you're understanding of more adult topis and of course great music, great animation with so much to look at, and characters with enough polish to grasp. That being said....that doesn't make it a bad universe by any means. Since my husband is pretty normie but overall scrutinizing (he showed me most popular romantic comedies, and popular tv shows/sitcoms and most aren't too bad) I go by his reaction somewhat. He loved it like I did, a bit less so for Helluva Boss which considering the pacing it has at first I understand. His favorite characters seem to be Alastor and Vox, I don't even need to ask him to know "Stayed Gone" is favorite track lol. I really do love the "more is more" aspect of everyone in design and personality, it gives so much to enjoy and think about. Of COURSE I like Lucifer the best lol.
That's a little silly man right there. Silly, awkward, lonely, weird relationship with parents and kind of a spoiled brat....he's literally me lmfao. 
Also, if hell's a whole thing somehow, definitely gonna be damned to staying there so him and I have that in common too lol. Anyway, if you're on the fence about giving either of these a try ( I recommend you start with Hazbin) consider these two 30 something's take; myself having the proper cringe history of DeviantArt anime fan art and other dorky fandom internet priming that makes me a prime target for this kind of thing, and a guy who just likes his 80's/90's/2000's movies and tv shows the way most people seem to do: We like it, it's a bunch of fun, very rewatchable, the fluid movements are eye candy. You don't even have to tell anyone that you watch it. It's okay, you can like the cringe thing and no one's going to hurt you. You can even read fanfiction about the thing and it'll be our little secret.
4/3/24
Currently listening to: This dope mix!!
3/28/24
I've got to stop apologizing for not updating as often as I wish I could. Instead, I'm going to accept that I'm just not the type to keep up with things very often, even if I love them. It doesn't mean I have any less love for that thing. Today I am very sick, and so is my husband. We're just here with all this coughing and fevers and feeling really sore ): it's not fun. But I guess it does kinda shake up my brain enough to make me feel like doing something different. Recently I have seen a few Youtube videos that have resonated with me and if you're the type to advocate for using Neocities, then I think it will resonate with you too!
Having a Feeling Instead of Making a Purchase
We Are in a Cultural Depression (my favorite of all of these!)
I Quit my Smartphone for a Year, Gained a Superpower
If you check out any of these, I would be forever thankful. I might actually figure out how to embed these in a seperate page with some other videos in a playlist that I can organize by subject, just so people can enjoy them without having to click away to youtube? I think it would just frame the videos in a better way and I could give my personal commentary on them underneath. Even better, I may figure out how to put a comment section under them so you could give your personal take on them while still on here. I know the comment thing hasn't really popped off on here, but to be fair, I'm not one to comment on other peoples stuff often either, so I suppose I should give before I expect to get anything.
Also! Recently I've been taking more photos with my Instax and I'm really hoping to find a way to make a whole page on here dedicated to all the pictures I've taken with it. So many cute pictures of cat must be shared lol! Honestly I may even make an entire page just dedicated to Constantine and how lovely he is. My spoiled son lol. As always, I'm open for your suggestions and thoughts in any of the comment spaces I've left here. Many times people online will talk about how hard it is to connect with other people, what is it that you think we can do to improve on that? What are you currently doing to make sure your peers feel comfortable casually speaking to you, assuming that is a priority you have? And if it isn't, why is that the case for you? No wrong answers here.
3/24/23
Recently I've been into curating an older, cozier vibe to what I do. I've been lighting candles, making a warm teapot of tea, laying down on my favorite quilts and just trying to make a cozy space for myself while I read books about crafting, painting, and antiques. It's been fun! I put on some music or rain asmr and really settle into a world away from my devices. I even draw, write in my small journal, and embroider some!
I used to think this was something I had to go back in time to enjoy in full, but that's really not true. You just have to tear yourself away from all the distractions and make new ones that fit what you want to do with yourself.
also
I watched all of Death Note again! It was because my husband hadn't seen it before, and man he LOVED it. Have we got a budding weeb in our midst?? It's honestly a great series, though. Team L all the way baybee ;) I'll probably gush about this more later!
I'm also going back and looking at my old Gothic and Lolita Bibles, I even have an English one (though I know I have more and can't seem to find them).
It's such a dream to look at them, even now. I sometimes think I should start saving up again for a bonafide lolita outfit, that would fit me (I'm a thick girl with a huge chest!) that I could have and wear to make my younger self who CRIED and DESPRATELY WANTED THESE CLOTHES happy. I have some stuff from Milk, AP, and BTSSB but it's all just accessories (and a non-lolita Milk skirt). When I held the items in my hands that I dreamed for so many years to have, I cried. I mean of course I did! Now I'm older, fatter (I consider this a neutral term), and my money is much less than before and needs to go to bills. I don't even know if saving up for something like that would be as worth it as it would have been in high school for me. And what style would I even go with? I think Gothic is the easiest subset to work with, shop for, and flatters my shape the most, but all my accessories are sweet themed. Maybe this is a fantasy that needs closure for the next fashion adventure of mine. It's so hard to dedicate to just one thing!
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